met with my guy earlier.., while on the way to meet him, i kept brushing the thought of my TL.., but i can't!! ang hirap gawin., parang nakasaksak na sya sa utak ko na ang hirap na nyang alisin! hindi naman sya gwapo, hidni nga din sya ganun katangkad e, matalino.., OO.., kaya nga sya naging TL e, anyway, un na nga, nagkita na kami ng BF ko, we went staright to their house, laugh trip, kiss trip.., then there it was.., the MOMENT.., akala ko dahil nagkita na ulit kami ni BF, makakalimutan ko na sya, GOD NO!! while doing IT, parang naiimagine ko na sya ung nagkkiss sakne, na sya ung nagccaress saken, parang sya, pero hindi sya! imposibleng siya!!
how can this be?
right there and then, i want to say his name! F**K.., why cant i get you out of my mind? how hard it is not to think of you!! wala ka pa naman ginagawang ganun ka-special saken pero bakit ang lakas ng effect mo?! bakit hanggang sa kama ikaw ang naiisip ko?! i hate this feeling.., need to move on.., need to be strong,. i have to find a way para hindi na kita maisip.., pero ano???
im still not getting this! while creating this blog, i pulled up my FB account, and there you were!! friends you may know!! WTF!! sign?! 27 mutual friends!! wow!!
so help me GOD!! -fin
Linggo, Hulyo 24, 2011
Sabado, Hulyo 23, 2011
Silly me
while going through my blogs.., i spotted a picture of my ultimate crush since the day i saw him.., JOHNNY DEPP!!! ang gwapo nya kahit ano pa itsura nya!!.., 
whether you're edward scissorhand in a SECRET WINDOW, along with the PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN, even a demon BARBER IN THE FLEET STREET.., you're still my prince, my one and only..,
may-december love affair
Minsan kahit anung pigil mo sa isang bagay, kung talagang nakatakdang mangyari, mangyayari talaga un., gaya ng nararamdaman ko ngayon.., i didnt expect to feel this way, cause im expecting a different one..,
OLDER THAN ME..,
akala ko kasi biruan lang ang lahat, sabi ko pa dati, "yan?" duh?!! hindi ako papatol sa knya.., para ko na xang tatay.., kung magkakaron man ng "something" samin., it'll be all about SEX,SEX,SEX.., nothing more, nothing less.., not bad kasi he's just on the line of 30-40., sabi nga nila, mas may experience ung mga gnyang lalaki, mas makakapgexplore ka.., mas magkakaron ka ng experience., mas masaya lalo na sa kama..,
BEING A GENTLEMAN..
magaling sya humawak ng babae.., kung san dapat ilagay, umikot at kung san dapat ilugar ang mga hawak, tingin at yakap.., ang galing! hndi ko naexperience un sa boyfriend ko.., sya kasi, masyado syang rough when it comes to handling me, itong isa naman,, kahit ganun edad nya, cool lang, masaya kasama at kausap.., laging may funny moments, siguro nga kasi, nakakilang babae na ba sya? lima? ilang anak? pito lang naman.., whew! dami agad sabit! pero as i was saying nga, it's just SEX!
THEN I WAS FALLING.., INLOVE?!
i have no fucking idea!!! gusto ko lang makatikim ng iba, magkaron man lang ng icocompare just for fun! for experience! and for pleasure of course.., as of now, wala pa naman nangyayari.., kumain lang kami sa labas, kasama ng iba ko pang friends, kasama ng iba pa naming kaibigan, pero dun pa lang, aysus!! pakening shit! sa mga moves nya, i know im falling, and i have to STOP! i have to., hndi kasi pwede, and i have two good reaons for that!! una, IM ENGAGED!.., i love my boyfriend,. 5 years ongoing na kami, nagpaplano na kami ng wedding namin and we're already building our dreams, ayokong masira un! ayokong mawala xa saken, ayoko talga!! pangalawa, nakikipagbiruan lang ako sa knya.., i dont intend to have him for the rest of my fucking life! i dont want to be with him knowing na buy 1 take 7 agad ang drama ko! that's shit! imagine?! magiging mommy agad ako ng panganay nya na 3 years younger lang saken?! huh.., for crying out loud!
RULES..
pero sabi nga nila, every rule has an exception., eto na ba un? pag-uwi ko kanina, para kong tanga! hindi ako makatulog.., obviously, iniisip ko xa.., ung ALMOST na bumigay ako nung hahalikan nya ko! god!! tempting!!! kaya lang nahiya din naman ako sa mga kasama namin.., sa office kasi, ayoko din na masyado kaming mahalata, kaya lahat dinadaan ko sa biro.., pero nung nagkkwentuhan kami ng TL ko, im serious nung sinabi kong i want a fucking buddy.., un bang, no commitment, no strings attached at nothing to worry kahit na anjan si original kasi alam namin kung hanggang saan lang ag limitasyon namin.., hanggang sa kama lang..,
HERE COMES MONDAY
hindi ko alam kung ano magging sitwasyon sa monday, all i know is, i better stop.., nakalimutan kong ng babae nga pala ko and i still have that weakness on me na madaling ma.fall.., so i better lossen up.., i need to spend more time with my guy.., its just saturday.., 12 midnight.., im waiting for monday to come.., im waiting, wanting and longing to him again this monday..,
OLDER THAN ME..,
akala ko kasi biruan lang ang lahat, sabi ko pa dati, "yan?" duh?!! hindi ako papatol sa knya.., para ko na xang tatay.., kung magkakaron man ng "something" samin., it'll be all about SEX,SEX,SEX.., nothing more, nothing less.., not bad kasi he's just on the line of 30-40., sabi nga nila, mas may experience ung mga gnyang lalaki, mas makakapgexplore ka.., mas magkakaron ka ng experience., mas masaya lalo na sa kama..,
BEING A GENTLEMAN..
magaling sya humawak ng babae.., kung san dapat ilagay, umikot at kung san dapat ilugar ang mga hawak, tingin at yakap.., ang galing! hndi ko naexperience un sa boyfriend ko.., sya kasi, masyado syang rough when it comes to handling me, itong isa naman,, kahit ganun edad nya, cool lang, masaya kasama at kausap.., laging may funny moments, siguro nga kasi, nakakilang babae na ba sya? lima? ilang anak? pito lang naman.., whew! dami agad sabit! pero as i was saying nga, it's just SEX!
THEN I WAS FALLING.., INLOVE?!
i have no fucking idea!!! gusto ko lang makatikim ng iba, magkaron man lang ng icocompare just for fun! for experience! and for pleasure of course.., as of now, wala pa naman nangyayari.., kumain lang kami sa labas, kasama ng iba ko pang friends, kasama ng iba pa naming kaibigan, pero dun pa lang, aysus!! pakening shit! sa mga moves nya, i know im falling, and i have to STOP! i have to., hndi kasi pwede, and i have two good reaons for that!! una, IM ENGAGED!.., i love my boyfriend,. 5 years ongoing na kami, nagpaplano na kami ng wedding namin and we're already building our dreams, ayokong masira un! ayokong mawala xa saken, ayoko talga!! pangalawa, nakikipagbiruan lang ako sa knya.., i dont intend to have him for the rest of my fucking life! i dont want to be with him knowing na buy 1 take 7 agad ang drama ko! that's shit! imagine?! magiging mommy agad ako ng panganay nya na 3 years younger lang saken?! huh.., for crying out loud!
RULES..
pero sabi nga nila, every rule has an exception., eto na ba un? pag-uwi ko kanina, para kong tanga! hindi ako makatulog.., obviously, iniisip ko xa.., ung ALMOST na bumigay ako nung hahalikan nya ko! god!! tempting!!! kaya lang nahiya din naman ako sa mga kasama namin.., sa office kasi, ayoko din na masyado kaming mahalata, kaya lahat dinadaan ko sa biro.., pero nung nagkkwentuhan kami ng TL ko, im serious nung sinabi kong i want a fucking buddy.., un bang, no commitment, no strings attached at nothing to worry kahit na anjan si original kasi alam namin kung hanggang saan lang ag limitasyon namin.., hanggang sa kama lang..,
HERE COMES MONDAY
hindi ko alam kung ano magging sitwasyon sa monday, all i know is, i better stop.., nakalimutan kong ng babae nga pala ko and i still have that weakness on me na madaling ma.fall.., so i better lossen up.., i need to spend more time with my guy.., its just saturday.., 12 midnight.., im waiting for monday to come.., im waiting, wanting and longing to him again this monday..,
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